is the grass really always greener on the other side?

they say that "the grass is always greener on the other side".
is that really true?

just because you think something may be up with the person whom you share feelings with, does it make your suspicions accurate?
he's acting weird. he doesn't call me anymore. he doesn't seem excited to see me anymore. it feels like we have nothing to talk about. does he even like me anymore? and the list goes on.
it first starts with doubt in the other person and turns into self doubt and the loss of self confidence on my part.
did i do something to make him mad? maybe i should call him more often. maybe i haven't done enough for him.
and self doubt quickly turns into more self doubt and second guessing myself. maybe i don't show my feelings for him enough so in turn he doesn't as well.
maybe my shoe laces are untied and i am trippin for no reason? maybe he's just been busy or tired lately from work? maybe i just need to give it time? am i over analyzing the situation and nothing's even wrong? or maybe i'm just simply losing my mind? and so the story goes..

i feel as if this train of thought has become a daily routine of mine. the thought of seeing/talking to him is always accompanied by excitement. and as the day passes, the excitement dies out as the thoughts begin to creep into my head and by the end of the night, i'm filled with self doubt yet again. it's an exhausting emotional roller coaster ride yet i can't seem to get off. then again, "can't" is the impossibility of something happening. maybe WON'T better describes it. "it's an exhausting emotional roller coaster ride yet i won't seem to get off".

i'm not ready. i can't change my feelings for him but i can try to think of things in a different light. i mean it's not like i'm being ignored. but shouldn't i feel special around the person who claims to "like me too much to never hurt me"? maybe he's all talk or maybe he meant it. all i know is that a girl needs some reassurance every once in a while. actions speak so much louder than words. i'm not a psychic and i can't read your mind so you're going to have to tell me what's going on. until then, i think i'll just wait it out.

so again, they say "the grass is always greener on the other side".
well, i think i'll stay on this side for now.